I also allowed Satan's lies get to me as well. My worldly desires to have things...to own a home....to make more money...to be able to have money left after the bills are paid.
God quickly reminded me that He is still in control. I need to set my hope in things above, not on earthly things. Invest in His Kingdom work instead of focusing only on materialistic things here.
Good news is that He picked me back up, wiped the dust off my behind and told me to try again.
Isn't He wonderful??