Leaning on Him

Emotions have been getting the best of me here lately. One minute, I'm so excited about the big move, and another, I'm petrified and crying.

I know Satan is certainly trying to win the battle of my mind, and captivate my thoughts. It's a tough battle to fight these days. And without me filling my head (and heart) with scripture as I should, he does win (briefly) at times.

I put in my notice at work, and as of October 4th, I will no longer be employed with Gateway. I've been with them almost 3 and a half years (which is a long time in the Social Work world), so it's going to be bitter sweet to leave. They're definitely a wonderful company to work for....

With that being said, I've applied for about 15+ jobs in the Huntsville area. I still have several other places to look into thanks to the recommendations of so many people helping me out. Job hunting freaks me out a little...you know, especially since I haven't done it since being fresh out of college, and since I'm pregnant and everything.
I KNOW the law says I can't be discriminated against, but come on...you know pregnant women often are when it comes to job hunting.

THEN comes the financial side of moving.....

We are getting a "moving expense bonus" or something like that from Thehub's work, so that will certainly help. But on the flip side, I think of all of the deposits for our utilities as well as the fact that we're pretty much having to pay rent in 2 places for the month of October...PLUS the whopping "early termination fee" for breaking our apartment lease.

"Any other worries?" you might ask. Well of course!!!

You see, here in the Bham, we have some family support. My brother lives close and helps out occasionally as well as Thehub's mom and my cousin. Without the 3 of them, I'd probably have gotten fired a long time ago from my job for not being able to do everything.
In Huntsville.....we'll have NOBODY!! Thehub's mom says she will come when needed, but probably won't be able to make the drive every week as she does now.

So daycare/ Mother's Day out it is. I've already prepared myself for this, and honestly it's not a huge concern right now.  Once I get a job, that will be another story. Did I mention I'm having a baby in February, and that would mean TWO in daycare of some sort?!?!?!


So those are the thoughts that run wild in my head, and bring me to tears everything I let them consume me. But you know what? My God is bigger than those issues. My God knows what tomorrow holds despite all of my "what ifs".  I am trusting in Him to provide all of these things.

We know He is leading us to Huntsville, and has opened so many doors already. He will continued to provide for us.

This morning at church, we sang an old hymn that literally brought me to tears. It came to mind one day last week as I was singing EJ to sleep...so I sang the chorus to him. I think God just knew I needed to be reminded of it once again today.
I don' think I've ever had to trust The Lord as I am now.

Leaning on the Everlasting Arms- click HERE to listen.

Leaning, leaning, safe and secure from all alarms
Leaning, leaning, leaning on the Everlasting Arms.

What have I to dread, what have I to fear, Leaning on the Everlasting Arms?
I have blessed peace with my Lord so near, Leaning on the Everlasting Arms.




So I think I will just LEAN on Him.....

The unknown

The unknown is one of the scariest things if you ask me. Not knowing where you will be living in the next few months...yep, one of the biggest things that freaks me out.

Thehubs has known for about 2 months now that there would be a possibility that he would have to relocate for his job. Granted, we wouldn't have to go far...we're talking about 2 hours from where we are, but the possibility has been there, but it's all been left out in the open and a whole bunch of "what ifs".

Without getting into all of the details, there has been talk of him getting one of 2 or 3 different positions, and only 1 of them consisted of us having to move. But it started out being the strongest possibility, and would dwindle away several times....and back again.

Just in the past week, I've went through the emotions of the whole moving thing being tossed back and forth. Thehubs was told that he pretty much would be placed at one of the positions here locally, and then BOOM the next day he was told that the other one was "hot" again.

You see, he's in the security business, and is an Account Manager right now. His goal one day is to be an Operations Manager, and we're so almost there because he is SUCH an amazing hard worker!!

So today, I've been looking at apartments in the area which we will very likely have to be moving (Montgomery). It's all kind of hit home and I'm trying to accept it.

Our original plans were to just move about 1/2 way there and I would keep my job, and we would still be fairly close to our parents. But his boss informed him today that he needed to be within 30-40 minutes of the place in case something goes wrong. (i.e.  in case he has to go in and cover for one of his employees that didn't show up, or go take care of something they screwed up).
So there goes the plans....again.

I mean really, God, I PROMISE I'm learning trust....I don't think I need any more life lessons.=)

We haven't "broken" the news to anybody yet...mainly because nothing is 100% certain. (which is what's DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!)

Today is August 20th as I write this, and I'm not sure when we'll know for sure. Until then, I'm thinking I'm just going to begin preparing to move. And I've been realizing how much this entails.

*Changing doctors (possibly even my OB...would I have to deliver Baby2 at a dif hospital1?!?)
*Finding yet another church (just when we're starting to find our niche here)
*Finding friends
*Me and my job....I have NO CLUE what I would do...
*Childcare?!?!?
*Being about 3 1/2 hours away from my family
*Being 2 hours away from Thehub's mom
*Figuring out a new area

I mean, I know people do it all the time, but this little mamma has only moved from home to college (as far as major city changes) and has never ever had to make such "adult" decisions such as this.

Lots or prayer has been taking place. We'll see how it all plays out.....eventually.


******UPDATE*********

On Sunday, 8/26 TheHubs got a phone call that changed everything. An Operations Manager resigned in Huntsville, and he was offered that position. DUH, that's been his goal all along, so he jumped on it.

So I get a text while at a Bridal Tea that day saying "Well I'm an ops manager now"

Since then, we have found an apartment up in that area, put in our notice where we are now, and I plan to put in my notice at work tomorrow morning. They sorta know I'll be leaving, and I'm pretty sure my boss is very much aware now since I asked to meet with him tomorrow morning about something.

PLEASE PLEASE be in prayer about my job. I've applied for several positions already, and continue to look daily for social work positions in that area. TheHubs will be able to do a lot of his work from home, but childcare continues to be a huge concern for me as well.

As I've told several people over the past week, if I were to actually sit down and stress about all there is to figure out, I'd just curl up in the fetal position and cry. It's a lot that has to be figured out, but I know God is leading us here and has already provided in so many ways.

Some realizations I've had about moving is that, yes I'll have to change pediatricians for my kiddos. I'll also be changing area codes, which freaked me out a little....AND news stations!!! WHAT?!?! No more James Spann when tornadoes are coming!?!?! I just don't know how we'll survive!!

Good news is that we're almost doubling our living space, and will have a 3 bedroom/2 bath apartment! Praise Jesus for more room!!!



I'll try and continue to update as things get closer. Oct 19th is the tentative move-in date. TheHubs wants to move sooner though because he's having to drive back and forth almost everyday until then.

So in the next 5 months, we'll be moving, I'll hopefully get a new job, we'll celebrate EJ's 1st birthday, AND I'll be having ANOTHER baby!! :)

What an adventure!!!