He is with you

The 1st time I heard this song, I was driving to work for a mandatory staff meeting that nobody in our department knew what it was about. The line in the 2nd chorus "He is with you in the conference room" stood out and it was like God was letting me know that no matter what happened, that HE would take care of us. During that meeting, I found out that everybody in my agency was getting a 10% pay cut. No, that wasn't fun to hear....especially since I had just gotten a promotion for getting my license, but I knew it was all God's timing! It's supposed to be temporary, but even if it's not...God is with me!

This week through my doubts and fears of life, I have been reminded of this song....my joy has been renewed through Christ's love! Praise be to Him, as He never leaves me nor forsakes me! EVER EVER!!!

He Is With You lyrics

There's a time to live
And a time to die
There's a time to laugh
And a time to cry
There's a time for war
And a time for peace
There's a hand to hold
In the worst of these
In the worst of these

Chorus:
He is with you when your faith is dead
And you can't even get out of bed
Or your husband doesn't kiss you anymore
He is with you when your baby's gone
And your house is still and your heart's a stone
Cryin' God, what'd you do that for?
He is with you

There's a time for yes
And a time for no
There's a time to be angry
And a time to let it go
There's a time to run
And a time to face it
There is love to see you
Through all of this

Chorus:
He is with you in the conference room
When the world is coming down on you
And your wife and kids don't know you anymore
And he is with you in the ICU
When the doctors don't know what to do
And it scares you to the core
He is with you

We may weep for a time
But joy will come in the morning
The morning light

Chorus:
He is with you when your kids are grown
When there's too much space and you feel alone
And you're worried if you got it right or wrong
Yes he is with you when you've given up
On ever finding your true love
Someone who feels like home
He is with you

When nothing else is left
And you take you final breath
He is with you

Waiting

I know God is in control, and I see that evident in my life. I know that praying is what you're supposed to do constantly, and I know that God does things that are beyond my control and beyond my comprehension!

However.....I feel right now like praying isn't enough. I know that sounds horrible, but Its like I've been praying and now I'm about the point I'm like "Okay, God....hurry up!" Nobody knows what I've been praying about and that has been so hard because I feel like I'm all alone in the matter.....I just really need to get it off my chest....

I know I'm not, because my God promise to never leave me...

Do you ever feel like you're not being heard? That you know God is listening, but it's like He is waiting for some reason, and I don't know what that reason is. I've come very close to emailing friends or even people I hardly even know and spilling my guts to them about this but I can't. It's like I hear that still, small voice saying "Am I not enough....trust in me.....I'm listening....spill your guts to me, Heather!"

So then I pray......I trust.....I spill....and then I'm back to square one....I wait!!!

Walmart Drive

Just a quick post on what the Lord taught me today. You may think what I'm about to say is absolutely crazy, but that's ok. It was a huge revelation for myself, and I know will continue to be a learning experience for me as He continues to speak.

I was driving home from Walmart, admiring the sunset after ANOTHER afternoon shower. One of the shapes I saw looked like a demon or something stretched out toward the earth, and so that made me start thinking about the spiritual warfare we are constantly invovled in here on earth. Well, that lead to another thought of "Man, I really need to spend some time in the Word tonight" which lead to another thought of "Yeah, I need to do that so I can be an example to those around me." Well THAT was where He stepped it. He told me that I needed to spend time with Him and fall in love with him for the simple fact that He loves me, and I want to get to know Him better.....not for the reason of being an example for others or for others to see that I'm some great "woman of God" (which I'm far from).

So there it was.....CONVICTION! I don't think I have ever in my entire life done something for the reason of Glorifying God alone-even if nobody else was watching. Have you?

I think I've always been so concerned about helping others and being a Godly Example to others that I've neglected to do things just for God....for Him and nobody else.

"So whether you eat or drink or whaever you do, do it ALL for the GLORY of God."

-1 Corinthians 10:31

So now the real journey begins....putting it into practice!

Famous

Several weeks ago, I submitted an application for the Birmingham News LifeStyle's Featured Wedding story that they have each Sunday. I had to answer questions about how Michael and I met and our 1st date, 1st kiss, how he proposed, etc. etc. By the way, our story is pretty amazing, so if you've never heard it, just ask and I may just have to post a blog about everything!

ANYWAYS..... Last week, I received a call from the lady, and she said that she is very interested, and that she is going to publish our story! I am soooooo excited! I always read that article everytime I get a Sunday paper, and I've always wanted it to be about me....and now it will be!

She did say that it won't be published until early 2010 because of all the other summer weddings that she received ahead of mine. But I don't care...I'm just thrilled!!

I'll let you all know when it will be published. She said she was going to call me the week before to let me know, that way I won't have to keep wondering each week. So you'd BETTER get that paper when I tell you about it....Michael and I will be FAMOUS! (Well, sorta!)

Power drill

Well, a lot has beein going on since last week when I posted. Where do I start? I am feeling much better, but just wish the last little bit of sinus crud would just go away instead of linger between my nose, throat and chest! UGH! But I can't complain, bc I'm actually FEELING great! Thankfully it only lasted about 2 or 3 days, so that was great!

Last weekend, Michael and I did absolutely NOTHING! Since we had satelite, we laid around the house all weekend watching TV and being so lazy! The only time we even got out of the house was for him to go to work on Saturday, and us to go to church on Sunday-that was it! I stayed in my pajama's ALL day Monday, which was wonderful! But then came Tuesday, and I had to fit 5 days worth of work into 4! Now it's Friday...I survived! I just have one more visit at 5:30 and will begin my weekend officially!

On the subject of work, I'll just go ahead and say that I absolutely love it! I'm just now beginning the teaching sessions with most of my families, bc the first few weeks you have to do all the inital paperwork and treatment plans and stuff. So last week and this week have been really exciting! I've been having to come up with stuff to teach to the families....anywhere from drug education to parenting to stress and anger management.

I've had a few situations this week during home visits that I was like "Oh No, what do I do?" But then, came out of there really feeling like I accomplished some things and helped. For instance, one of my client's is really struggling bc she has previously been addicted to prescription medications (Oxycotin & Lortabs) and due to that and an abuse allegation, she only has supervised contact with her 7 month old baby girl! So she called me last night squalling because she is just so upset and is ready for everything to be over. I was able to talk to her and encourage her that she is on the right path, but that she just needs to continue working with me and with her DHR worker in order to get her baby back. I can't imagine how she feels.....she's so torn! But THAT'S why I love my job....I'm the good guy =) I get to listen to them when they're down and encouraged them and tell them that we are going to do whatever it takes to get them their baby back at home.

Now do I think she is ready right this moment to have her baby back and everything be just fine? No....she still needs support and help. She's a struggling young mom that has made mistakes....but I really think she's trying and that she's on the right track!

I probably said too much about that, so I'll move on. The bottom line was that I like what I do.....it makes me feel good to know that I can help people. And I really think that God has me at my job to MINISTER to people, and to tell them of HIS love! =)

Ok- moving forward. If you are friends with me on FB, you may have noticed my status earlier this week that I am not so good with powertools. Well, let me just tell you my story.

Several weeks ago, I went shopping with my mom and bought some curtains and a curtain rod for our living room window. Since we live in an apartment-like townhouse, people are always outside, and we have to keep the blinds closed so they can't see our every move. AND even with them closed, you still feel like they can see you. Our couch is right in front of the big window, so it kinda freaks me out you know...

Ok, that's beside the point. So the week after we got the curtains, I thought I would hang them up while Michael was at work and surprise him so he wouldn't have to worry about it. So I already had the cool laser leveler thing of my dad's and everything I THIOUGH I needed. Got the holes marked off and was ready. Well, I remembered that I had always seen a box for a power drill upstairs in the laundry room. Never opened it, but assumed it would get the job done. So I charged the little thing, and tried to drill a hole in the wall. Didn't do too good. The drill wasn't "macho" enough, so I gave up, put all the curtain stuff up and decided that we would just use the $50 ACE Giftcard to get a good drill.

Moving forward to this week. So I saw an ACE Hardware in Columbiana when I was coming home from one of my visits, and decided to stop in and grab a drill. SO I did. Got the cheapest they had, bc most of them were over $100!! So I got it, came home and drug everything out AGAIN to try and surprise Michael, this time with the curtains AND the new drill!!!

Tried to drill a hole in the wall in the same place as last time, and even with the "real" drill, it just didn't work for me. I'm not strong enough to hold the thing steady with the screw and everything. So I made a hole much bigger than necessary, and gave up!

Well, I had a visit after that little attempt, and decided to just leave everything out and hopefully Michael would see the stuff laying out when he got home, and get all excited and drill the holes or whatever. I got home shortly after he did that night, and I asked if he saw the drill. He said "Yeah, and thanks for letting me pick out the drill I wanted." Ugh...I was devestated!!! How could he be upset that I picked out a drill.....I thought I was doing good. I got my feelings hurt and just marched in the kitchen to start cooking supper.

Well the sweet husband he is, wanted to love on me a little bit to make up for hurting my feelings. =) So he assured me that he wasn't upset, and said that we would see how this one worked, and if he liked it then we would keep it....if not, then we could take it back and that would be fine with both of us. I was over it too...yeah I should have just let him pick it out, but oh well.

So that's my story....curtains are still not hung, and he hasn't tried out the drill. Maybe next week sometime, bc we have a busy weekend ahead of us. Who knows, he's off Tuesday, so maybe I'll have a little surprise for me when I come home Tuesday night. (hint hint, Michael)

Ok, that's all for now. I must say in closing that I have the best husband in the WORLD! He makes me so happy even when I'm sad or mad or stressed....he does everything in his power to make me happy! Couldn't ask for anything more.....

Wonders of Television

I went to one of my dear friend's house Sunday to hang out and have a little girl time. Well we got on the subject of Satellite TV and Netflix and other fun things like that. Michael and I have been talking a lot about getting Dish back due to Alabama football, Grey's Anatomy, and Hockey Season....therefore, we need TV! I kept telling Michael that we would wait a few more weeks or a month, and he just kept saying ok ok.
So anyways....I decided to go ahead and order it!! YAY! We got it connected today, and I'm so excited!

I came home from work early today, because I'm sick! Ugh! I was all fine and dandy until yesterday afternoon, and it seemed like I could feel myself getting sick by the minute! I had a sneeze attack, and my entire head started hurting! So today has been so much worse!
It was so nice to just come home to a hubby (his off day was today) who had straightened up the house and was doing laudry....and of course watch some DISH Network TV!!!

Onward to some even more exciting news! Michael and I are planning our first vacation in October! We'll be going to Chattanooga for the weekend to see Celtic Woman in concert and go to the aquarium!!! We're going to try and stay at the Chattanooga Choo-Choo and maybe squeeze in a trip to Rock City! I am sooooo excited, bc this is something I've always dreamed of. One of the most exciting things to me about being married is getting to go on the little weekend trips together, and this will be our first!!!
I want to take as many of these little trips as possible before we have little ones, and I'm thinking we can get several trips in within the next 2 or 3 years! =)

Life is good....if I could only breath through my nose......